it’s not the worst I’ve been
but things can certainly get better

I don’t feel great
my face’s not right
my hair’s a mess
I didn’t know self image would get me
but here I am
getting defeated by my self image
every day

I want to stop looking at the mirror
maybe tape all of it away
but I can’t stop looking at myself
nitpicking at everything

looking at how many pimples I have
or how bad my eyebrows have become
my hands all over my face
hoping I’d make it get better
but making everything worse

I tell myself this is the last time I’ll do it
everything will heal or grow out
and I’ll be beautiful again
like the pictures I took before

perhaps that’ll make me happy again
I’ll bloom in confidence
and everything will be fine

but when will that day come?
certainly not tomorrow

healing takes time
and patience
and perseverance

that I don’t have

I think I’ve become obsessed
over myself

and they said you should only compete or compare
yourself with yourself

but in this game, the worst enemy is me
always putting myself down
looking at how much better life was back then
how much clearer my skin was
how much fuller my eyebrows were

I don’t think I’ve ever been so affected
by how I look
I always thought that I’d be so much stronger
comfortable in my own skin

but I feel ugly disgusting
I’m not doing well.

well here’s a happy ending
because that’s how things are supposed to end
I will be well.