I pleaded to God
for your quick and safe arrival
worrying about possible
traffic and parking
you may encounter

relieved to see you there
white
everything is going to be fine

I should have prayed for wisdom
for you
awakeness, peace, knowledge, clarity,
confidence that you can do well
despite the lack of sleep
and the circumstances

My stomach churned
flipped over
when you said no
it was a rough day
my heart broke
as if it had been me instead

I think you wouldn’t appreciate the pity
but I don’t know how else to comfort you
I still care for you
even if I have decided to view you as otherwise
these instinctive feeling tells the truth
about how I feel

I pray to God that He will bring good out of this
you are smart
capable
honest

I have cheated
I think I am in a good place
but not out of my own efforts
I don’t want to be punished
but I have done wrong
and the right has suffered

you are deserving of everything good
I pray that it will come to you
pray that at the end of the day
it doesn’t define who you are

because you are so much greater
intelligent
I see it
the letters and numbers don’t tell
all that can be seen

so I pray that you will be at peace
be comforted
that is all I can do now
as I try to move forward
and let you go
open my heart to you
as a brother